If On A Winters Night A Traveller.... BOOK REVIEW!

Hello world, how are we all feeling today?
Yes, a very happy Monday to you too!
I've been actually looking forward to this day, because of yesterday blog. So I have been feeling determined and really concentrating upon my stuff, not others stuff, my stuff. So, now I feel like my Monday has taken a selfish turn! But I remember a great old manager of mine saying, "you have to be selfish sometimes, to feel happiness."
I have started off simple today, eaten more fruit and vegetables today, along with good run after work.
Theres this really long road, it start of at one roundabout and ends at another roundabout. I have set myself a goal to be able to run the whole road without stopping or slowing down to a walk.  Lets just stick with without stopping. I will not let that road beat me!
Even when my yoghurt leaking all over my bag, didn't bring down my spirits.

Another thing I have been feeling very determine about was to finish this book I have been reading since New Years. I have been trying to use my determination to get this book finished by well last week and finally last night I have finished it!
As you can tell it couldn't have been the best book around. But it had some good reviews.
If On A Winters Night A Traveller- Italio Calvino. A creative and inventive story about a reader, who starts reading 'If On A Winters Night A Traveller' and that it no longer goes on. He sets out to find the rest of the story, but each copy he picks up is a completely different story from the one he started with. The journey as you a reader, follows through on the search for finding the story you originally wanted to read.

It sounds amazing, when you sell it like that. Most of the reviews has included; "Creative", "imaginative", "inventive." Which, yes I will agree, was exactly that. I have never read a book in that narrative before and at the beginning I immediately felt myself being sucked in. Have you ever found a book, where you start reading the first couple-ten pages and you can feel yourself fading, drifting into the book  itself. Feel that each other word is becoming alive and you are seeing, rather than reading. Have you ever felt that? That is exactly what I felt for the first few pages. Just as the story was slowly unravelling, I felt myself lose interest and then it suddenly became a burden to read, something I hate feeling, but too stubborn to call it quits.
It is, unfortunately one of those books that has a great beginning and a great ending, but the middle part is just a drag and you force yourself to find the ending within the on going chapters.
I still would recommend this book for anyone who wants a book to read that is completely different from any narrative you have read before.
So give it ago.

What do you think?
I'm going to work more book reviews, reading is a huge passion of mine and I would love to keep sharing them with you!

Ciao for now homies!

Welcome to the new... Little Talks?

Hello world!
How have you all been?
Me? Oh, well.... We'll get to that OK?

It's been awhile. What has it been? Two weeks?
I am truly sorry for the lack of updating, but if you would like to know. I have not let you down, I have let myself down. The general plan for 2014 was to post a lot more. I have failed my life.

Which brings me to my next point! Lets hope I stick to it, you all know I like to wander during my whatever we call it, because it is not really a rant or a moan. Lets call it our "Little Talks." They sound friendly in some cynical way.
I'll be honest, I've missed you imaginary readers! I missed writing in this.
OK, I've slipped from the point I was making.

So, there has been a couple of reasons why it has been two weeks and not every other day.

• I've moved! Again, third house to live in, within five months of moving to Bristol.. And this one might be a winner. Even though I am already trying to think of a new city move to. Suggestions please?
• The main point... I've been questioning my life again. 

Yes, I have actually put myself into that roll on the floor, rocking backwards and forward, banging my head against a wall times the past couple of weeks. I really should have seen it coming, hormones, the move, the resettling in, money, the job.

I have had people and I will quote, 

"Are you OK? You seem a bit down and daydreaming lately?"

 I would love to have replied with; "Well, no actually, I am currently questioning my existence in my life upon this universe and why am I here? Also along with thoughts of, am I good enough, Am I in the right job? Is this what I want to do for the rest of my life? What Am doing with my life?"
The reply was, for those who wants to know was; "Yeah. Sorry, I'm just thinking about...*insert boring related thing to whatever it is I am actually doing*."
So..... yes. I have been really tired with just thinking about these thoughts and I just haven't really been thinking about anything else.
Whilst I have been so involved with these thoughts, the main thing I have been trying to figure out is; what am I doing with my life. The problem with that thought, is the emotion that comes with it. Being a female it can come twice as worst, give and take the time of month. To me, all I can see was all these people who had it thought out. Everyone around, on the internet, just generally EVERYWHERE, knows what they doing with their life, knows what they want to do with it, knows where they heading- whether it be falling in love, getting married, having children, travelling the world, getting that dream job, completing their life task that they was set out to do.
The truth is! They don't. You guys don't right? I mean, the ones who know where they want to go career wise is because they had the support, the knowledge all their lives. It what they have been thought to do, it's 'in their blood'! Whatever that means.
It's like I need a plan! People work well with plans.
I DON'T!

How did you get out of this trail of thoughts Claire?
Well, they come and go and I know in a few months, or in a few weeks they will come back, unless I make the ultimate change.

As you may know it is Chinese New Year this week, or does officially start tomorrow or Wednesday? Well, besides the case. You are all aware that in a New Year post, I have said that I concentrate more on my resolutions during Chinese New Year. I don't know who I want to be, or what I want to achieve out of life. But there is definitely one thing I do want to be and that is happy.
I don't want to be in one place for the rest of my life, but I know that I want a job or something that holds a very good interest in mine. Such as BOOKS!

I also want to concentrate on another interest of mine, other than books. Well another two interest of mine.
I want to get back into paintings and drawing. I really miss the days where I would spend my time drawing and then changing it into a watercolour feature.
Another one is fashion. I love fashion, I love keeping an eye on the fashion weeks and the collections provided, and with a great help from the internet and the high streets, I can keep more up to date with it all.
A new change for Claire, is finding her own style. Since living in a small quiet town, I have found the females all just copy each other fashion, which is fantastic as it helps set the trend. But what I need is something that just says, Claire. So something rebellious, enchanting and imaginative.

Rebellious, Enchanting and Imaginative. I like those three words. I think I will have them mark somewhere, so I can see them. Not like tattoos! I'm thinking maybe creating a large canvas and sticking it somewhere, or a piece of jewelry made or something.

This is where... Excuse just analysing myself. Although I need friends and time to socialise, but I also need to time to myself and doing what I love. I have had it in my head for so long, that I need to get out and stop being cooped up inside, which has forced me to go out and stop doing what I wanted to do in the first place. Lets just combine the two now, yes?

What do you think? Do you have any similar stories, and how did you get over these trail of thoughts?

So what if it's late!?

Good Evening World!
How are we all?

Did you know it is pouring down with rain! I was going to walk home in it, but luckily a colleague gave me a lift! So that was a safe call, I could have gotten soak!

Now I was meant to post something during the weekend, but then my book I am currently reading, got good. So then I was going to post on Monday evening and beautifully came along a huge headache that resorted to an early night sleep and pain killers. So, I was like Tuesday night, Tuesday night I will post! But then came the need to go to bed really early... zzzzzzzzZZZzzZZz.

So here I am four days late.
You know that saying right, 'better late than never.'

This weekend has been inspirational one. Well actually I have been finding this whole week an inspirational one, although a lot of it has been involving sleeping and headaches!
Saturday, I just explored the exciting world of Clifton. That was fun! I found the shop Forbidden Planet.
For a Sci-fy, fantasy, anime/manga fanatic, you would love this shop deeply.
I don't think I was in there for long, because I am only a book fanatic. But I did enjoy looking at their anime, it was the largest anime collection I have seen in Britain! So I was actually content in looking. I did buy something from there. My mother will kill me, because she thinks I have way too many books. Yes, I brought a book. Peter V.Brett- The daylight warrior. This is the third and final book to the Arlen tales, it is about a boy called Arlen who lives in a world where people are afraid to come out in the dark, because the land is overridden of shadow like demons. The only way to keep yourself and home save is by marking house with wards that fight of the demons and stop them from trespassing. Arlen, is a person who decides to tattoo his whole body with the wards and has taken to fighting the demons. I am really looking forward to reading it and finding out what will happen in the end.
I also ended up going into another bookshop, where all the books are £2... £2 books, I am pretty sure I have posted something about this bookshop before. A few months later and I am still in love with the book shop! I love that bookshop! Yes, I did end up buying another book from that shop. Thats the second weekend in a row that I have brought two books. This is becoming too addicting, I spend more time buying books, when I should be reading them.
After that, I decided to hit the cinemas and watch a film. All by myself, because I am a brave person. Some people actually feel intimidated to go to the cinemas on your own. It really isn't that scary, people may judge you for going there on your own, or they may be in complete awe for having the confidence to do what makes you happy.
The Secret Life of Walter Mitty.
What a film! I have seen two new (as in, I've watched them for the first time) films this year, one of them was We Are The Millers and the other was The Secret Life of Walter Mitty.
I never will actually think it is in my place to give off spoilers, and I have a friend, who read says she reads my blog and she has kindly asked me not to give the story away.
One thing I will say, and that is within the words from an article I've read on The Guardian careers page.

,people tend to get 'headstuck'- they are stuck inside their minds rather than stuck in reality.

Thank you Rob Archer for that quote.
Thats is one of the lines I would use to describe the film. There is a great quote from that film, that I would like to take me everywhere and that is.

Beautiful things, don't ask for attention.

 So, if you haven't seen The Secret Life of Walter Mitty, I strongly. Yes, I emphasise the word strongly go and see that film! I trust you won't be disappointed.
ARGH, I just want to go and see it again!
With thanks to the writers of that film and Rob Archer, as I now feel like I need to come out of my own head and become more involved in the reality of life.
This does not mean that I will cease reading. Books are my life.
Oh and then on Sunday I...

Also, great news. I have finally found a room that is suitable size and pretty nifty. I am looking forward to moving on this weekend! Wish me luck!
See you soon world!

This is...

Hello world!
I have returned...
Yes! Returned to reality. It is good isn't.
It is amazing to return to reality, to settle back into six am wake up calls, working all day and then returning home and just wanting to eat rubbish junk food because I really can not be bothered to cook!
So, excuse me while I munch on some amazing Salt and Vinegar sticks and be hypocritical about how reality is amazing.


Oh, thats right.
How are you all? How are you all coping with New Years Resolution?
Me? I've failed. I haven't done any writing and just been reading fanfiction...
It always takes me awhile to get into full swing of New Years anyway, I really should just start saying my New Years resolution starts for Chinese New Years. Only because I have settle into working, I have started working on the minor things, like waking up in the morning and I feel more motivated on their New Years!
Although, last night I dreamt that I was in an episode like Ghost Whisperer. Has anyone seen that? You know a newly wed woman, moves to a village and is dealing with a bunch of ghost and helping them to 'cross over'. So pretty much like that, but there was demons trying to break into this house I was in and I have never seen this house before, just talking to some people I have never seen before. The stronger demons was able to open the door, (I know, well mannered demons right?!) they would come towards us and the light in my chest, ahem. HEART! The trouble is due to setbacks, broken hearts, loneliness, misplaced dreams. This light within me has been getting weaker and weaker, and all it is, is a little speck. So some of demons have been getting in and getting past us! Then I woke up. Or so I thought.
And this is moral of why I am telling you about my dream, believe it or not.
I woke up and felt this need to write it down in a very dark room and how/what the demons felt like when they penetrated my flesh or well something along those lines. That was what I did, I wrote it down. I wrote a lot of it down. So, when the alarm clock wakes me up at six in the morning and I have just gotten showered and dress, I start looking for this notepad I have written in for this demon feelings. Only to realise I dreamt that I have woken up to write in my book. I could not find it anywhere! So, I woke up feeling great that I have been completing my resolution and feeling my face hitting a brick wall, when I realised I dreamt it.
A LIFE FAIL! FML! Moment for you Hobbits out there.
I am now onto Caramel Nibbles, I bet you dieters are hating right now.
I'll be hating me soon enough when my trousers won't fit me.

AND this is reality!
It has been reality for two days now and I am already finding/found ways to escape from it. I have been looking forward to getting back to reality during the last final days of my winter's break and now here I am trying to escape! I just can't stop reading internet crap! I need help!
What I really want to do is just to escape into a good book, something I can read and then be able to tell you about it all. Via blog or by a Vlog.
To enter a world that is completely not my own, to believe and fall in love with characters or a character (preferably one that doesn't die this time.)
A book where you can feel yourself fading into their world, you start smelling what they are smelling, seeing what they are seeing and even feeling what they are feeling. Just to say goodbye to the troubles of this reality and enter theirs.
This is where you have notice the found section. I have started reading a book, that with every word I absorb, I have felt myself drift and fade into their world of the unknown until that story unravels.
I feel like I will need to develop a multiple personality: A working personality, a hobby/writing personality and the reader personality.
This reality of my head is becoming fun and completely out of control. But thats what January is all about for me. Sorting and working through the crazy ness of it being a New Year and also teaching myself to write the correct date on forms.

Its Ok too

Hello beautiful world!

How are we all feeling right now?
Hungover much? From all the great night partying?
Tired from just having to stay up?!
Me? Well... I think it is a case of a mixture of both. I didn't really go out, but I stayed in and watched Alan Carr and a bit of that Gary Barlow thingy.... I was jealous of the people at that show, they looked like they was having a lot of fun. Also the Londoners looked like they was having fun albeit, they was also looking slightly wet. It was just nice to see everyone having so much fun. I did have fun, watching Alan Carr and wishing I was there.... It was a nice quiet time in for me.
But as soon as the clock struck twelve and the fireworks had all but started, I couldn't but to feel really nostalgic over the fact that 2013 has ended.

I have been trying to reflect about my year, like you may have remember back the previous Blog. Of course when I have been trying to do so, I keep looking into Facebook, Tumblr and Twitter, all the walls on the social networking sites has been filled to the brim about how great the New Year will be. How much things will change, how much this person is going to be tougher, stronger and only going to be looking at the up's. Let's face the future and forget about the past.
I was completely the same, I don't think there's been a year where I haven't thought to myself or said to myself, this is going to be my year. My year to change myself, change who I am, find out who I am, be happy with myself, etc etc aisdhdghth... And this has got me thinking, every time I have thought like this, it only last a day. This is because, as soon as I wake up on the late morning of New Years Day, there is only one thing I feel different about myself and that is the occurring headache I have self conflicted on myself. With this feeling in the morning I am ready to give up. I hate the fact that I am still looking and feel like the same person I was a few hours before. For some strange unbeknown reason it makes me want to give up everything I've said the night before and continue the way I have done like last year.
Wallowing in self misery and questioning where and what I am doing with my life and myself.....

I then heard something a couple of days ago while I was watching Glee with my mother..
(It was a Glee marathon, we was very happy and turned into couch potatoes that day!)

It's Okay to take baby steps.

With this quote now stuck in my head, I can't help to feel great with everything I have achieved in the previous year. I felt like I didn't need to reflect on my year and come to this annoying conclusion that I have regrets and mistakes.
No, this year I have had learning curves. They have actually been the greatest lessons in life I have learned or still learning and I still want to continue learning these lessons.
I have also felt more confident in my life for the first time, and I feel more comfortable within my skin. Yes, sometimes I will have days where I feel like I am heading into the many wondering about what I am doing with my life and why I am here.
But with thanks to this Blog, YouTube, people out there on the YouTube and internet industry, they have all made me feel like I am capable in doing just about anything I want.
I have also made some new friends in my life and I am ready to head back out into reality and make an effort with everything that has come my way.

With the baby steps I have made from 2013, I can just feel the changes are beginning.
2013, was the start, the beginning of me. But 2014 and so on will be the progression.
So this year my New Years resolution is to keep on writing.

Happy New Years World.